Before I begin writing this blog post, I have to admit: My title seems legitimately like a random google search title. Seriously. Haha, but this is what I truly want to talk about!
These days, I know, and am sure, people are struggling with their own lives. To make the most out of it. Or perhaps you are searching for your inner dreams and soul. Whatever the reason is, you came far to search this and reading this blog.
Sometimes, I am hurt inside too much. I think to myself, how am I bearing it all? Honestly, being in the 20s sucks. Don't you think so? But then I thought, well in my 30s and 40s, I'd probably feel more awful. You know why? Because my people relationships are going down. I'm in a bad mood.
Yeah, hence, the title, how to stop this cycle and escape from reality, or rather my own miserable life?
Sometime, I envy those with perfect teeth, perfect face, or perfect brains; sometimes, a perfect personality. It is all relative to you - what you don't have is what you envy of others.
So I thought. Well, simply I can quit this life. And then the second after, I think I have had too much alcohol, and listened to too many sad songs. I cannot believe myself to be sick, and I don't think I am. I am a normal human being. Facebook legitimately makes me feel bad when I am not happy. It shows and carries happy and sad life events of my friends (or whoever else that shows up on my newsfeed), and it really, really makes me sad. Why? no matter what occasion, I am sad that I cannot be a part of it - what seems so stupid and small, I'd still be jealous of them.
So I am going to promise myself to stop looking at these news. All these news about celebrity, too. Do I actually care that whoever dated the other or cheated on someone else, really affects my real life? To be more concise, they don't care about me as much as I do about their lives - so why bother?
Only a week left till I leave this miserable place, but is it really the location that I am in that makes me in a bad mood? Or, my family? friends? To think it over, I think I just lost another friendship - and thinking about that person really pisses me off. Hence, I won't talk about him.
Good night to you all, and whatever that makes you in a bad mood, just kick them out of your lives.
If you physically can't, at least you can do it mentally. I find drawing and kicking their ass on the paper really helps. Stick figures would do.
Someone once said, if you have a sail and a wind (for the boat), you can go anywhere you dreamt of.
Why not spread your dreams onto a piece of paper and a pen? You know reading those useless newspapers or watching TV shows or listening to your favourite song won't help. Why don't you jot down something on your paper notepad, instead of that stupid computer? That way, you feel the calmness of your soul. Worry less about others. Focus on your breathing. Go less mobile, go paper-based. :)
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