5 Years
I said, let's see each other in 5 years
I needed some change of air, a brand new me
I need time to think it over
but I didn't change much.
Still, was it just me
that lingers onto my memory,
or you too?
After 5 years, I thought things'd get better.
well, here I am, coming back to the same spot
and you don't seem to mind me at all
I just want to tell you how much I've missed you,
but where are you now?
To ask that question, I'd make a fool of myself
because perhaps you moved on.
5 years wasn't that long to pass.
What did I accomplish throughout that turmoiled period?
Was high school really just a teen-drama
that I fantasized? Have I completely gone mad?
Sometimes I ask myself,
was it really you that I've been missing, or just a piece of you
that I liked?
A soft-hearted, gentle soul or just an ordinary person?
You've reached out to me several times,
but I couldn't reply.
You knew why, you shouldn't have, and you still did.
Was it a taboo? was it others' perceptions?
I don't know why and how, but if you can relate to me at all,
I hope one day we'll meet on a Sunday afternoon on a sunny step somewhere in North York.
Perhaps at U of T, right outside of the library.
With all smiles and no tears.
I've built up enough of my imagination to have seen you a couple of time in the past. Am I truly mad?
5 years have already passed, but still I don't see you anywhere.
I have full of fear for you, and I don't think I can move.
I've been telling you that you were a real pain to me,
but now I'm obsessing over you.
Ironic how times just fly -
Should I? Dare I?
Should you want me to?
My confidence is faltering, and I need someone to tell me to be in control of my life.
In 5 years, 5 years, why did I say 5 years?
Should you ever pass by me, I hope we will never greet each other.
Pretend we don't know each other.
Would you do that for me?
All smiles and good talks will get us some day, and I will screw us over again.
Did you know? I've cried more in my life for you than any other.
Whether you're here or on the other side of the world,
I hope you know that you are a good person.
